Let’s start off with some nice warm fuzzies before I get into the meat of what I have to talk about tonight. Joe’s home. Life is good. I was able to cook dinner with him here to watch the girls while I stir-fried. Nothing fancy, but it is nice to prepare a hot meal in my kitchen again. I do not know how single moms of babies do that part. Joe came home tan and rested, and he was happy to see all of us, and Julie was thrilled to see him. We are back to our regularly scheduled programming, and that is just how I like it.
Today, I took this picture of Sophie wearing a hand-me-down shirt from Julie. Joe posted about the shirt on his blog last week, wondering what had happened to it. I dug around in the storage bins and found it with the next size up clothes, since Julie wore it for a couple of seasons. Joe bought it for her and thought it was great. I think it is cute in its intended subversive way, but also it doesn’t match the other pieces of clothing we have very well, and – well, when we’re out I sort of like to blend in most of the time and not wonder what people are thinking about what kind of mom I am to put my kid in a t-shirt like that. But I do find it cute and funny, so I stuck it on Sophie as a welcome-back greeting to Joe.
She’s also wearing the socks sent to us by Carolyn. Julie didn’t get to wear her socks today because she wore them yesterday and they are in the wash today so she can wear them again tomorrow. She loves them, and has been calling them her “Bob the Builder” socks because everything she loves most is labeled her “Bob the Builder” whatever-it-is right now. She asked about them several times today. Sophie had some fun trying to grab the beads on her ankles without tipping over sideways.

I suppose I could leave it right there, and we would all leave this post with a warm fuzzy feeling. The argument could easily be made that I should leave it right there and not bring up the topic I’m about to mention. That the boat shouldn’t be rocked, that I’m overly sensitive, blah blah blah. I’ve heard those lines too many times in my life – times when people were manipulating me not to speak up for myself when really I needed to. So now, I sometimes speak up when I think something is wrong even though I know I’m probably putting my foot in my mouth and maybe hurting myself or someone around me. But even though I know all this, I sometimes can’t stop myself from saying what’s on my mind. So here goes.
Last night, my neighbor M from across the street came over for a beer on the front steps. We were sitting there having a friendly chat about mild matters – neighborhood issues, our kids, the weather, the bunnies hopping around in the yard – that kind of thing – when we noticed another neighbor’s light on and decided to invite her over as well. D came over, and somehow it was mentioned that Joe is Korean and therefore our kids are half and half. D said something like “Is that what he is – don’t they have some really nasty food?” I was stunned at what she said right then and there, because even if that were true (and I’m not totally denying it that there are some things in korean cuisine that don’t especially appeal to me) that’s not the kind of thing you say to your neighbor when talking to her about her husband’s culture of birth. I mean, that’s not the first thing you’d say about your Norwegian neighbor even though they eat lutefisk at the holidays (bleaaaacth. I’d much rather eat a freeze-dried anchovy than slimy lutefisk any day. As long as it hasn’t been rotting in my deep-freeze for a couple of months) .
But I managed to control myself and said “Nasty food? What nasty food?” And her examples were kim-chi and spicy ramen noodles. She went all off on how kim-chi is traditionally buried in the ground while it ferments, and she refused to listen to me when I explained that it is simply pickled cabbage, that lots of cultures bury foodstuffs (in jars) in the ground to preserve them for winter. She didn’t want to hear it when I told her how much I enjoy eating korean food, and she kept making fun of it for about five minutes. I finally told her “I think I’m a little offended by that”. Then, she made a kind of back-door apology saying “Oh, you know I was just kidding” but then she immediately followed it up with another barb about yucky korean food. At that point, I took a look at my watch and reminded her that she was due to pick up her partner at the airport and she didn’t want to be late.
D left, and M and I talked about the conversation for a minute. M seemed to think that I had overreacted a bit – that D was joking the whole time. I’m sorry, but her tone was not joking – it was serious, and even if she had been joking, it wasn’t funny. Nobody wants to hear that what they eat and enjoy every day is disgusting. And if you’re making fun of korean people, you are making fun of my entire family. Even if I am a big loud white girl. The whole “joking” excuse is a great way to piss me off. It is such a standard manipulation technique. You float a thought or an idea to see if the crowd is willing, and if they’re not, you brush it off with “Oh, I was just joking.” It surprises me that *anyone* thinks they can get away with that, and it surprises me even more when they do.
Okay, so to clarify – it’s fine if you don’t like korean food. Some of it is quite spicy, and I know a lot of people who just can’t handle it. (Especially living here in Minnesota surrounded by people of Norwegian ancestry). That’s fine. But you have no right to write off the cuisine of an entire culture without even trying it – and I mean really going in with an open mind and sampling more than one dish – for yourself. There’s plenty of non-spicy korean food to go around, and if you asked nicely, they’d help you figure out what to order at the restaurant.
That conversation? To me, it’s a great example of latent racism. Us versus them. Calling someone a racist in modern America is a pretty hard insult, because it is pretty taboo to admit to it these days. I don’t take it lightly. But the thing is – people like D don’t even realize their bias. Here’s an admission on my own part. I know for a fact that I am not color blind. I know that I have cultural and racial biases. I just do my very best to recognize them and overcome them as they come up.















